So before I start, let me say that we do not have to be so formal here. I would like to be called "Cassie" Cassandra feels a little too formal to me. Now that we have that out of the way, let's talk.
So what is my happy place and why is it so important me?
For a long time I was desperately trying to find my happy place. For years happiness to me felt like a dream or some sort of fantasy. I have been through a lot in my life. I have experienced things that no one should ever have to. As a child I have experienced things that no child should ever have to. The crisis and hardships I faced in my life caused me to drift away from my happy place. After facing trial after trial I felt exhausted, my mind and my body was seriously running on empty. Eventually this struggle going on inside of me brought me to a state of depression. My life felt like a uphill battle, I was fighting to survive and fighting to stay alive. I got to a point where I had a decision to make, I had to decide if I wanted to give up on life or if I wanted to fight to live. I decided to fight to live, and oh what a fight it turned out to be. My end goal was to be happy and to provide a happy and healthy home for my children. These goals were the ultimate motivation for me to try and achieve healing in my life. After years of walking on the healing path, I credit my healing to my relationship with God. My relationship with Jesus Christ helped me to change my mind set and my unhealthy outlook on life. My relationship with Christ also helped me to let go of past hurts. As a result I can see and feel how God is restoring my life today.
My Journey To Happiness
My journey to healing was not a "cake walk" by any means. I had my share of ups and downs, sometimes I felt like I was on a emotional roller coaster. It was a learning process, most of the time I was being down right hard on myself. Maybe, I was rushing the healing process or maybe I was not trusting the healing process. Dare I say it! perhaps I was not trusting God as much as I should have. There were many times I thought: Where is happiness? Why can't I find happiness? After all the work I had done to achieve healing, why couldn't I reach this mysterious happy place? I felt like I was banging my head on the same closed door for years and still couldn't find happiness.
"It hit me like a ton of bricks"
One day it hit me! Happiness is not a mystery, I was searching for happiness in this far away land. Right then it occurred to me that happiness was not in the past, and happiness was not in the future. Happiness was right here, right now. I should not have been looking for happiness, instead I should have been creating happiness. Happiness is a choice, it is my choice to be happy. I could spend my time worrying and feeling sorry for myself or I could create happiness right here right now.
"Happiness in the music"
Music is something that has always have a calming effect on me. I learned to find happiness in the little things. I listen to music when I want to dance. I listen to gospel music when I want to worship or pray. I listen to upbeat pop music that has a inspiring message. Happiness is doing something that I love to do, something that makes me smile and laugh. Writing this blog brings me happiness, writing has always been therapeutic for me. Spending time with my family playing games, taking a stroll in the park, reading scriptures or just watching a movie is happiness to me. Reading inspirational books is something that also brings me happiness. I learned that I have the power to create happiness around me. Happiness is not "somewhere over the rainbow." My happy place is right here right now.
"Today is the day"
Let's face it!
Life is not perfect, it's always going to be another trial or obstacle around the bend. I know that whatever life hands me, today is the day to create my happiness, I am not going to wait until the future to be happy. My happiness cannot be defined by success, money or other material things. I choose to be happy today, I am a work in progress and I am alright with that. If I am not happy I know that I have the power to change my circumstances. Life is about growing and evolving into a happy and healthy human being. As long as I keep moving forward that is all that matters. My happiness is here today and I choose to embrace it; I am finding my happy place daily. I hope that you too find your happy place, wishing you good health and happiness.
- Cassie






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