Trusting God's Sovereign Plan

     When I face Injustice what can I do???


One of the hardest things is to understand why we face injustice. I found myself in distress, trying to figure out why I had gone through such a difficult childhood; the injustice that I experienced in childhood greatly affected my quality of life through adulthood. I really could not understand why this injustice was happening to me and I felt like it was unfair. If there was a God and if he loved me why did he allow this to happen to me? I tormented myself with this question for years. This question had been in my heart, and I wanted to know why me? My heart had become hardened, because I could not see beyond the hurt and the injustice. I was frustrated and angry because it just didn't feel fair that I had to deal with this injustice. I had allowed the hurt from the injustice to take over my life, the injustice became my identity and that was all I knew. Every waking moment I spend thinking about what my life could have been  like if I hadn't experienced this injustice. I found myself unable to move on with my life, because I was unwilling to let go of the hurt. If I wanted healing in my life I would have to forgive my offenders, I would have to let go of the hurt and lastly, I would have to surrender to God and trust his sovereign plan for my life. This was easier said than done!


My Breakthrough Moment

I got the breakthrough that I was looking for while reading the book of Job in the Holy Bible. I was spiritually led to read the entire book of Job as I was praying for a breakthrough. I won't write a summary on the scripture here, I will just point out the lessons I learned from the scripture. 

As I was reading the book of Job I couldn't help being drawn to Job's emotions. I identified with three different emotions in the text. In the beginning of the scripture when Job lost his possessions and his children.The first emotion that I zoned in on was guilt. Job begins to feel guilt, he felt like maybe he had done something wrong to deserve what was happening to him. 

Then when Job is stricken with illness and his friends comes to visit him. The second emotion that Job encounters is shame. Job felt ashamed of what has happened to him especially in the presence of his friends and his friend's judgment makes him feel worse. Job friends see what is happening to him and they accuse him of not being the holy man he claimed to be. They felt like Job had done something wrong to deserve what was happening to him. Job endures the visits and the accusations from his friends. 

Towards the end of text the last emotion that Job goes through is frustration. It's important to know that Job never curses God for what has happened to him. However, he starts to question God about why these things were happening to him. Job felt like he had been a faithful servant to the LORD and the things that were happening to him was a injustice. When God showed up and answered Job that was a powerful moment. God basically let Job know that he can not comprehend his ways. God further let Job know that he is all powerful and all knowing, the world and the universe yield to his will. In the end Job had to repent because he realizes that God's Thoughts are higher than his thoughts. Job repents and God restored him better than he was before. 

This was a teachable moment for me. I could identify with the three emotions that Job went through guilt, shame and frustration. I felt guilt when I was abused, I thought that maybe I had done something wrong to deserve to be abused. I also felt shame, I worried about what people would think of me if they found out about the sexual abuse. I also felt anger, hate and frustration all in one. I hated my offenders and I was angry at them; I was frustrated that God did not stop this injustice that was happening to me. I can identify with the pain that Job felt, but I too had a change of heart and new found respect for God's sovereign will. That question that I once had about why me? just floated away. I realize that God is fair and just, he is sovereign in all his ways. Even though this terrible thing happened to me, I trust him that he would restore my life. I was not willing to go to battle with God about this hurt anymore. I decided to put down my arrows and trust him. I trust him to be my defender and my everything. I no long feel like I need to fight my own battles or carry my own burdens. I show up and do what I can do, and then I trust God to do the rest. God is sovereign; his thoughts, wisdom and power is beyond my way of thinking. Today, I trust God's sovereign plan for my life, and I am excited for the journey he is taking me on. 

Whatever you may be going through right now, trust God to see you through. Wishing you good health and happiness! 


                                                                          Cassie 

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